AHHHHHHHH!!!!!

LIfe is hard sometimes. Doesn't it always seem like when life throws you a curve ball about 10 others seem to come at you from other directions all at the same time? I'm sitting in Santa Rosa in what will be mine and Louis's bedroom come next week and I'm tired and sad. My grandpa is sick and in the hospital and its been a very stressful week. He was admitted 11 days ago with a serious infection in his gallbladder and he isn't srong enough to survive a surgery where they would remove it. And so the doctor's are trying to treat the infection with antibiotics. It's unknown if this will work. We got the call yesterday am from my aunt saying we didn't have much time and we needed to come be with Grandpa. My mom and I and my dad rushed to get there ( my mom was at my house helping me pack and my dad was in PA for work). we got my mom on the first flight out and I met my dad at 8 pm in SFo so he didn't have to drive alone. We went right to the hospital. Grandpa was sleeping but the nurse woke him and we got a minute or two with him seeing us and saying a few mumbles before going to sleep.I knew one day in the near future we would come face to face with grandpa maybe reaching the end of his life, but you just never know when. For us, it is happening the week that we are packing our entire house and planning on moving. Oh and I am 2 weeks into another new job. I left Luci and Louis (its hard being away from them)to rush to see grandpa and I am so glad I did. I had some wonderful moments with grandpa today. In fact once he woke up and was coherint and joking he probably spoke more than he has in a long time! Nana is such the chatterbox that he usually sits silently and listens and smiles.

I am getting into bed and then tomorrow Mom and I are going back to pack the house and jump in the moving truck and drive back to Santa Rosa next week. Somewhere in all this, I will be saying goodbye to the friends I have made over the past 10 years.

Like I said, sometime life it tough. But in the end, we will be starting a new life as a family and that can only mean good things to come.